If this mad little book is ever found, perhaps printed,
and even read, it will make approximately the same impression on all happy young men.
Different only according to the different stages of their development. In those of the
first degree it will arouse the sensitivity of the flesh; it can wholly satisfy those of
the second degree; and those of the third will simply feel a certain warmth from it.Women
would react quite differently to it. There are none among them who have not already been
initiated. For within herself each woman possesses that love about whose inexhaustible
nature we young men can only learn and comprehend a little at a time. Whether already
unfolded or still in the bud, it's all the same. Even in her naive unknowingness the young
girl already knows everything, even before love as lightening has set fire to her delicate
womb and the closed blossom has unfolded into the full calyx of desire. And if a bud had
feeling, wouldn't the presentiment of the flower to come be clearer in it than the
consciousness of itself?
For that reason there are, in feminine love, no degrees or stages of development, there
is nothing general at all, only so many individuals, so many unique kinds. No Linnaeus can
classify and spoil for us all these beautiful plants and flowers in the great garden of
life. And only the initiated favorite of the gods understands their marvelous botany, the
godly art of divining their concealed powers and beauties and of knowing when they bloom
and what sort of soil they need. There where the beginning of the world is, or at least
the beginning of men, there too is the real center of originality, and no wise man has
ever fathomed femininity.
One thing does seem to divide women into two large classes. That being whether they
heed and honor nature, their senses, themselves, and masculinity; or whether they have
lost this true inner innocence and purchase every pleasure with regret, to the point of
becoming insensitive to their own inner disapproval. That is the story of so many. At
first they avoid men fearfully; then they are sacrificed to unworthy men whom they soon
hate or betray, reaching the point where they despise themselves and the feminine destiny.
They take their limited experience to be universal and they consider everything else
ridiculous. The narrow circle of crudity and vileness in which they constantly move is for
them the whole world. And it doesn't occur to them that there might also be other worlds.
For them, men are not human beings but merely men, a different species, annoying but an
indispensable aid against boredom. They themselves are thus also all of a kind, one like
the other, without originality and without love.
But are they incurable simply because they have not been cured? It is so evident and
clear to me that for a woman nothing is more unnatural than prudery (a vice which I can
not think about without a certain inner rage) and more troublesome than unnaturalness that
I wouldn't want to set a limit and say any woman is incurable. I believe their
unnaturalness can never become total, however agile and uninhibited they may have become
in it, even achieving an appearance of consistency and character. It is all only
appearance. The fire of love is totally inextinguishable, and even under the deepest ashes
sparks still glow.
To awaken these sparks, to clean them of the ashes of prejudice, and where the flame
already burns pure, to nourish it a bit: that would be the highest aim of my masculine
ambition. Let me admit it. I don't love you alone, I love femininity itself. I don't
merely love it, I adore it, because I adore humanity and because the flower is the summit
of the plant and its natural beauty and structure.
It is the oldest, most child-like, simplest religion, this to which I have returned. I
venerate fire as the most splendid image of divinity; and where is there a more beautiful
fire than that which nature locked deep in the soft breast of women? Consecrate me
as a priest, Lucinda! Not so that I may idly view the fire, but so that I may free it,
awaken it, and purify it. Where it is already pure, it will maintain itself without guards
and without Vestal virgins.
I write and rave, as you see, not without unction; but it also does not happen without
a calling, in fact, a divine calling. What may that man not dare to whom intellect itself
said in a voice coming down from the open heavens: "You are my son in whom I am
well-pleased." And why shouldn't I by my own authority and freedom of action
say of myself, "I am the favored son of Intellect," just as many a noble man
wandering through life on the path of adventure has said of himself, "I am Fortuna's
favored son.'' Anyhow I actually wanted to talk about the kind of impression this
fantastic novel would make on women if chance or caprice were to find it and put it on
public display. It would also in fact be unfitting if I did not offer you in as brief a
form as possible a few small proofs of my powers of prophecy and divination in order to
assert my right to priesthood.
Though all
readers would understand me, none would misunderstand and misuse me like the uninitiated
young men. Many people would understand me better than I myself do, but only one person
would understand completely, and that person is you. All the others I hope to attract and
repel by turns, hurting them as often as I propitiate them. For every educated woman, the
impression will be quite different, and quite unique, as unique and different as their own
characteristic way of existing, and of loving. Clementine will merely be intrigued by the
whole thing as a novelty to which there might really be something; part of it she will by
the way grasp correctly. People say she is hard and impetuous, and yet I believe that she
is worthy of love. Her impetuosity reconciles me with her hardness although, to all
outward appearance, each feeds on the other. If only hardness were present, she would have
to seem cold and heartless. Her impetuosity shows that the sacred fire is present and
trying to break out. You can easily imagine how she would play with a man who loved her
sincerely. The delicate and vulnerable Rosamunda will be attracted as often as she is
repelled, until "shy delicacy becomes bolder and sees in the actions of fervent love
nothing but innocence." Juliana possesses as much poetry as love, just as much
enthusiasm as intellect; but each is too isolated in her. For that reason she will
occasionally as a woman be frightened by this bold chaos and wish the whole thing had a
bit more poetry and a bit less love.
I could go on a long time in the same vein, because I am striving with all my might for
knowledge of human nature. And I often know of no better way of employing my solitude than
to reflect on how this or that interesting woman would look and behave in this or that
interesting situation. But enough for now; otherwise it might be too much for you, and the
diversity might turn out poorly for your prophet.
Just don't think so harshly of me, and realize that I write not only for you but for
our contemporaries also. Believe me, the only thing I care about is the objectivity of my
love. It is in fact the magic of writing which confirms and shapes this objectivity and
all my inclination to it. And because it is denied me to breathe out my flame in song, I
must entrust the beautiful secret to these silent strokes. ln the process, however, I
think about the contemporary world in its entirety just as little as I think about
posterity. And if there must be a world about which I think then let it be the world of
antiquity. Let love itself be eternally new and eternally young, its language free and
bold in the old classical vein, no more discreet than the Roman elegy and the noblest men
of the greatest nation, and no more rational than the great Plato and the holy Sappho.